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Im not a little girl anymore and I've actually got my head on straight . Everyday I realize more and more the person I used to be is not the person I am today. I've made mistakes actually enough for this lifetime and my next, however they've only made me stronger and smarter . I've laughed,I've cried, I've been in love , broken someones heart , and had my heart broken . I have Gotten utterly and completly waisted only to wake up in the morning confused and not wanting to know the shennanigans that occured the night before . Do I regret any of it NO ! I've realized that things I once loved to do I don't love as much anymore . People I thought were my friend werent really my friends . I've trusted people I shouldnt have and not trusted the ones I should have . I've learned that not everyone is as nice and most people are selfish and will do whatever they want not caring who they hurt in the process. When thinking of them one word comes to mind KARMA andI am a strong believer in it . I actually feel sorry for them because I believe that what they will get in return will be far worse then what they dished out. Im over the whole he said she said thing if I have something to say I will tell you I wont pretend to like someone if I dont.I see no point in saying hi or being forced to fake a smile and pretend .I know that people will talk and honestly I let them . Why should I or would I care what some regular Joe schmoe thinks of me ? You dont have to walk in my shoes the day you do then maybe you can judge the decisions ive made in life wether good or bad . There are people who thrive on other peoples failures and misfortune they are called assholes . And Im sure when you think about it you can name a friend or two who would fall into that category. They are simply unhappy with themselves and their lives so instead of dealing with it they try and put down others. People like that are no longer wanted or welcome in my life. After realizing all of these things I laugh alot more then I used too, I dance alot more then I used too, I've generally learned to appreciate the hand I've been dealt. I love it I love my friends I love my family and ofcourse I love Diesel :) I love to read !!! I love sitting on the sofa and watching C.S.I ....Coldcase...The Closer ....Without a trace ...Family Guy ...Friends all my favorite shows ! I love good music you know the kind that even if your in a bad mood you cant help but smile and think I love this song !!! I love a good dirty martini ...I like going to nice dinners ...hanging out with my true friends not my club friends but my real friends (There is a BIG difference in the two group of friends ) I like being goofy and myself Im a big kid I like to crack jokes and laugh ...Lately thats all I do is laugh and smile :o) I've learned to forgive easier then before but I also know not to forget what certain people are capable of . I can count on my one hand the number of people who I honeslty trust with anything . These are the people I am happiest with and the reason why I am who I am today . They push me to be a better person a more caring and more trusting person . They've taught me that you can trust someone and that not everyone is always trying to get something from you, not every guy is just trying to get in your pants ! I've learned that people always come into your life for a different reason . Some are meant to stay a lifetime and some not so long . Some to be a friend when you need one , some to help pick up the pieces of a broken heart that you once had, some to help you become a better person . And maybe if your lucky one person will help you with all of this . Like they say ," Sometimes good things fall apart so that better things can fall together " Love the life you live afterall you only have one :0)my number one man always and forever <3My bestfriend and brother love him to death <3my buddy :)Madelynn Joey and me at 46 My working partner in crime