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$*GRINDER*$

IDLE HANDS ARE THE DEVILS PLAYGROUND-SO EXCUSE ME-BUT I HAVE MINDS TO TWIST-AND VALUES TO WARP!!

About Me

One thing I don't like,is POSERS!Anyone that would call Provo(a small mormon town)P-Town!IS A POSER! A WANNA BE GANGSTER-PRETENDING TO BE COOL!THEY WOULDN'T LAST A WEEK WITH THAT ATTITUDE IN MY NEIGHBORHOOD IN CALIFORNIA!Just thought I'd clear that up first!! Now to about me,I love music,I sing and hope someday my voice will get me somewhere,other than in trouble!I know some people may look at my pic's,and be like"she sings?",when my friends heard my tape(I don't have it on CD yet)it blew thier mind,they could'nt believe that it was me!Don't judge a book by it's cover!I've studied a lot about forensics,and have a lot of experience in the field of criminal psychology,so I know enough about forensics that I could probably get away with pretty much "anything"!I write Poetry,and have for many years.I feel I express myself better in my Poems.I am from San Diego,CA but I'm stuck in the circus for a while,my family lives here,and I came up temporarily and ended up on probation for 3 years,ooops!It's harder to get away with something that's on video!Well and it didn't help having about 15-16 Cops as witnesses! I love the beach,and I'm going nuts being so far away from the ocean!AND SURROUNDED BY FUCKING MORMONS!I have an adorable little CHIH TSU puppy named "Nico",he's my pride & joy!I thought I was the boss with him,but evidently it turns out HE IS!!My display name**GRINDER** is mine an only mine! Grinder is my nickname,and for good reason,don't let me catch anyone messing with my account,or you will find out why my nickname is *GRINDER*!.My puppy has even got a nickname! Anybody hurts him,they'll be filming a new movie"The #@*% Chainsaw Massacre"!!I'm a very loving person,I'm understanding,I love kids(when they're quiet,unless thier laughing,or the noise is coming from happy playfulness)!I love knives,and handguns,my favorite is a Tech 9! (but thier illegal in the United States,at least for the citizens)I bet Bush has one stashed in his desk drawer!And Cheney's Probably got one hidden up her *@%#! Basketball is my favorite sport.Ya know Vince Lombardi had a point when he said"Winning isn't everything,it's the only thing"!Don't even try to challenge me,because I will win!I fight to the End,slapping around is for Bitches!I may be a chick,but I throw down like a man!Having 9 brothers did have it's benefits,I learned how to protect myself like a man!It had it's bad points as well,one of them turning me insane wasn't part of the plan,but at least I can survive on the benefits!I'm a cutter,yes,I LOVE BLOOD,but only my own,it takes away my pain inside,and obviosly I'm not afraid to admitt it!I fight the urges to cut the best I can,but cutting is a part of me,and if you don't like that,then you can just shove it up your ass,if you're not already!(shoving shit up your ass)Now I have to Quit smoking(cigarretes)I already quit messing with drugs and alcohol like almost 7 years ago,but I really am in a jam now.I have to choose between an early Death,or smoking!I just found out I have COPD(chronic obstructive pulmonary disease)!I don't really want to die! So I'm trying real hard to quit smoking!So I'm not to happy right now,so this would'nt be a good time to fuck with me,cause I'll chew you up,and spit you out! MySpace Profile Photo Editor
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My Interests

Music,Forensic science,Poetry,and my PS2-Grand Theft Auto "San Andreas",one of my best friends just got me a couple new games,"TRUE CRIME-NYC",and,"NEED FOR SPEED-MOST WANTED"!Awesome games! I don't usually play games(since I used to lose to strip poker every time,I swear they were cheating!)I was thinking about working for a Crime Scene Clean-Up Crew,Ya see my parents were really strict about me cleaning up after myself!My bro.never had to clean up,my mom did his dirty work!And she's still doing it,and he's 42 yrs.old.Dear old "evil" mom,cleaning up after a Pedophile.Protect and Serve is a Cop slogan,not a MOM slogan.GET IT RIGHT!!My family ran us all off to the circus when I was 4 1/2 years old,WHO KNEW IT WOULD BE SMACK IN THE MIDDLE OF "UTAH",UNDER AN USSUMED NAME "THE MORMON CHURCH!" That could definately cause a twitch for a youngster!DAMN!!SO I'M DEFINATELY NOT INTERESTED IN THAT CIRCUS,AND THOSE CLOWNS THAT TRAVEL THE WORLD!I WON'T EVEN START WITH THEM!

I'd like to meet:

I'd like to meet new friends to chat with.Great minds think alike,so I'd like to meet some great minds!Most of them are dead and are mentioned in history books,like Albert Einstien,Leonardo Di'vince,Jeffrey Dahmer.So don't be shy,I'm not!!I want to meet people that aren't afraid to speak thier mind,no matter the topic,unless ofcourse the topic is MORMONISM!That is a topic I can not tolerate!It just brings back some issue's from childhood that I'm not able to handle right now!However,whatever the topic,they need to know what thier talking about,or it'll piss me off!I really want to meet more friends that are like me,not wanting to except the victim role,but wants to learn how to be a survivor instead.You would be surprised at all the things that I understand!Personal experience is the best teacher,I think.Or,I could be the actual reincarnation of Einstien!You never know,anything is possible.I can keep secrets,if somebody just needs a friend to talk to,and it's kind of personal, or embarrasing.In fact,my lips are sealed,and I LOST THE KEY!Or I might have buried it,I can't remember.Try me!I switch up my photos now and then,if you were paying attention,you would have noticed!I just want to show a new one,or I just want to,and I don't owe anybody an explanation!Feel lucky you got one!!Like the new one!!Piss me off,and I'll show you what those are for!!(evil giggle)

Music:

I'm eclectic when it comes to music,but my favorite is R&B and Hip Hop.I also love George Winston his Winter/December album is my favorite,ya see I also play the piano,and He is my favorite Pianist!I don't like M.Manson,it's the cutting thing,I HATE COMPETITION!!

Movies:

True Crime-Crime Dramas mostly,I don't like fairy tales! I love suspence,so I like some of the newer Horror movies,like"SAW 1&2",an "Final Destination 1-3" and,"Wishmaster 1-3" was awesome to,edge of your seat type flicks!My all time favorite is the classic,the one and only "SCARFACE"! I like 8 Mile to and Hustle & Flow,but nothing beats "SCARFACE"!!

Television:

The Closer,Without A Trace,Law and Order SVU&CI,CSI,The crime dramas,the realistic things that really do happen in life.I like seeing justice served,while being entertained.I'm twisted,but I'm not heartless!I am heartless towards sex-offenders,I dream about torturing them!!!I actually got my hands on a rapist once,well I got to beat him up pretty bad,but before I got a chance to castrate him,I was ready to,pants down and all,my little bro.pulled me off of him,and told him he was going to let go of me in 10 seconds,lol,I've never seen anyone run that fast before!LOL

Books:

I like the "Anarchist Cookbook".It's extremely educational!I also really like " The Teachings of Buddha ",It's extremely inspirational,I believe people need to have a balance when it comes to the negativity and the positive things they take in,in life!NOT ME--YOU!!

Heroes:

I look up to Dr.Kyavorkian,even though he's locked up,I believe in what he was doing!He helped so many terminally ill elderly in excruciating pain finally rest in peace,and end thier suffering!MY OTHER HERO IS MY PUPPY-"NICO"-And I'm not here for dating,so guy's keep your pants on!Just friends,unless I choose you,I'M THE BOSS! REMEMBER THAT!!REPEAT AFTER ME,SHE'S THE BOSS!!PLUS I WOULD WAN'T TO DATE SOMEONE WHO IS LIKE ME-MEANING A CUTTER,BECAUSE ONLY A CUTTER WOULD UNDERSTAND ME!!

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SOON MY VOICE WILL BE ON CD TO SHARE WITH YOU ALL..................

Soon I'll have the opportunity to get into one of my brothers recording studios,and sing!! I'm really excited that I can finally get my voice on CD to be able to share with my friends,and everyone her...
Posted by $*GRINDER*$ on Tue, 23 Jan 2007 06:30:00 PST

MUSIC MEANS TO ME..........................................

MUSIC IS A BIG PART OF MY LIFE! I SING AND THAT BRINGS ME SO MUCH HAPPINESS-I WAS BLESSED WITH A VOICE THAT YOU WOULD'NT BELIEVE-AND I THANK GOD FOR THAT GIFT HE'S BLESSED ME WITH!! ...
Posted by $*GRINDER*$ on Tue, 12 Dec 2006 03:22:00 PST

I BELIEVE THAT POETRY IS THE MOST EXPRESSIVE WAY TO REALLY COMMUNICATE-AND SPEAK YOUR MIND!!

POETRY IS A BIG PART OF MY LIFE!!NOT ONLY HAS IT BEEN A COPING SKILL THAT HAS GOTTEN ME THROUGH A LOT OF TOUGH TIMES, MY POETRY IS NOW BEING COPYRIGHTED AND PUBLISHED IN BOOKS!! I'M HOPING THOSE SAME...
Posted by $*GRINDER*$ on Sat, 30 Sep 2006 08:33:00 PST