About me:
Paul
Look At Me Now
"shake your heads. shake your fists, fuck it shake your dicks just dont keep still"
Paul
I have had a reality check recently that sometimes you've got to fight for even the things you feel will always be there, and so its my time to learn to fight.
FACT:
People dont take me particularly seriously.
For one reason or another, too many people seem to think that I am "Background-Boy; The ULTIMATE Sub-plot"
Well I'm not. I am as real as any of you, I'm just not as in your face. I'm not as outwardly full of myself. I am what I am, and the important people know who that is, so I'm not going to shove it in your faces.
My life isn't quite perfect. I love it about 30% of the time, the rest of the time I meander along, feebly joining in on the outskirts of life, because for 70% of time, the things that make me who I am aren't around.
My friends, my family, my girlfriend. Most importantly my girlfriend.
Just because I dont love my life, it doesnt mean I'm not happy.
I love the life I can potentially have one day.
I have the perfect girlfriend, a good career lined up, awesome friends.
It has occurred to me, life isn't just in the making, it's in the maintaining. And for the first time in my 21 years, I swear to myself, and anyone who has got far enough down this dossier of demi-self-exposure, that I WILL maintain the life I have, and that I want.
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I can't even begin to say how much I love this girl
Sometimes we laugh, sometimes we dont. Thats how life is.
Whether any of you believe it/ doubt it/ dont want it/ dont care, We are forever.
You are beautiful, you are funny, you are unique, you are very very beautifully slim (!), and you are who I am supposed to be with.
I love you
xxx