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Janie

In the sunset of dissolution, everything is illuminated...

About Me



We can never know what to want, because, living only one life, we can neither compare it with our previous lives nor perfect it in our lives to come.

There is no means of testing which decision is better, because there is no basis for comparison. We live everything as it comes, without warning, like an actor going on cold. And what can life be worth if the first rehearsal for life is life itself? That is why life is always like a sketch. No, "sketch" is not quite the word, because a sketch is an outline of something, the groundwork for a picture, whereas the sketch that is our life is a sketch for nothing, an outline with no picture.Einmal ist keinmal...what happens but once, says the German adage, might as well not have happened at all. If we have only one life to live, we might as well not have lived at all.... - The Unbearable Lightness of Being; Milan Kundera

"The great and saving lie - that our love for things is greater than our love for our love for things"


"They had never seen one another from afar. They had never known the deepest intimacy, that closeness attainable only with distance." - Jonothan Safran - Foer
soft, let me see your face once more
finding beauty in my sighs.
staring hard into auburn light
the yolky sun that breaks my eyes.
And I say it is you that found me in
the forest of my soul.
autumn is falling through the garnet glass
of your libertine lusts; voracious style.
so could you wrap your summertide passion
around my icebox inclined smile?
These vernal seasons, blackberry winters;
they all will someday fade into you.
snow me in and smother my disquiet
let the equinox divide the sky.
clear azure ahead, but rain will fall;
we'll do alright if we dance.
Satisfatictory storm clouds brew,
but they will all clear with you.

My Interests

Music...music, playing, making, writing, singing.. anything. I play in a band and I'm loving it.

I'd like to meet:

Cesare Borgia, Albert Speer, Fernando Pessoa, Frida Kahlo, Salvador Dali, Escher, Claudius, Lucrezia Borgia, YOU

Music:

Tool, The Mules, The Presets, New Order, Velvet Underground, Goldfrapp, Baldielox, Atmosphere, Elliot Smith, Pearl Jam, Placebo, Panic! At the Disco, Marlow, Simply Complicated, Nucleus, FanEsky, Eagles of Death Metal, Radiohead, Snow Patrol, Flaming Lips, Cog, classical music, Simon and Garfunkel, The Arcade Fire, Mr. Bungle, Miasma and the Carousel of Headless Horses, Tin Hat Trio, Dirty Three, Secret Chiefs 3, Mindless Self Indulgence, Hot Chip, The Unicorns, The Rapture, Red Riders, Kasabian.. and ok now I'm bored of listing bands. You get the idea, right?

Movies:

Anything Tim Burton.

Television:

"Humour is a way of shrinking from the wonderful and terrible world" - Jonothan Safran - Foer

Books:

yes please [The Prince, For One More Day, The Book of Disquiet, The Lord of the Rings, Everything is Illuminated, The Unbearable Lightness of Being, The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nighttime...]
"Death is the only thing in life that you absolutely have to be aware of as it's happening." - Jonothan Safran - Foer

Heroes:

God and every person who stood up for themselves, every person who walked apart from the crowd, every person who resisted, every strong willed person who lived their own life.

My Blog

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FUCKFUCKI JUST WANT TO CLIMB ONTO THE ROOF AND SCREAM
Posted by Janie on Sun, 02 Sep 2007 07:09:00 PST

resignation...

resignation is an annoyingly familiar feelingyou kind of get used to it and stop noticing an unlikeable situationwhy talk yourself into accepting it? People are adaptable in that way.I am tempted to j...
Posted by Janie on Thu, 23 Aug 2007 08:05:00 PST

I don't know how to say sorry anymore

it's gone on so long I don't know how to turn around and really say sorryis it ever too late to say sorry?I guess after a while it ceases to matter.
Posted by Janie on Sat, 28 Jul 2007 11:33:00 PST

I've been waiting, I've been waiting for this moment... all my life...

... but it's not quite right.Why did you make me remember?I didn't want to recall what I just forgotten.I didn't want to rememberI didn't want toEinmal ist keinmal...what happens but once, says the Ge...
Posted by Janie on Fri, 13 Jul 2007 12:56:00 PST

do you think...

... that it's possible to lose something you never had?
Posted by Janie on Tue, 10 Jul 2007 06:54:00 PST

the way you move is a mystery...

....so let's battle?
Posted by Janie on Mon, 09 Jul 2007 03:35:00 PST

procrastination..

no, I won't wait.. forever. I won't. 
Posted by Janie on Sun, 24 Jun 2007 07:26:00 PST

I'm sorry I'm too lazy to talk to people

meh study and living far away and lack of money but don't feel bad, I really am being a hermit and not talking to anybody!So it's not like I singled you outI just don't talk to anyoneyepsighback to st...
Posted by Janie on Fri, 15 Jun 2007 07:21:00 PST

lab coat pub crawl

was rad. Serious rad action.Althoughsome things could have been differentit always could have beenI guess..."it seems you've stepped over lines I've drawn again and again"It's never going to be. I'm g...
Posted by Janie on Thu, 22 Mar 2007 12:53:00 PST

I like living here...

... because I like being able to hear the beach from my room, and see it from my front doorstep. yep. Makes me love life. Also, actually living near things is awesome.
Posted by Janie on Fri, 02 Mar 2007 06:07:00 PST