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Hydra

don't let me let you go

About Me

Midnightsparkle

A physical feeling of emotional entanglement as everything melts away and gathers in a pathetic beautiful puddle reflecting endless images. By morning it evaporates, not gone just less obvious. Every other day I hate myself, the between days: I hate you. "There are image symbols which can barely be articulated.
They belong to the domain of the visual memory.
Committing them to words rapes their secrets." Don’t take face value
Don’t take the value of my face
Even if you read correctly
I could never confirm

My Interests

Do not try to balance me out, let's just enjoy the ride. I enjoy sitting on a bench looking at iced over snow, going around aimlessly, being in the rain, reading at the library, musing around in the forest, reminiscing on town streets, to be settled in a room getting fucked up, taking notes in a class room, scribbling life into margins, feeling music, getting lost, listening to insight, wondering parks, passing through stores, staying up all night, wasting time, messing with it, straightening it up, getting there, leaving the window open, sleeping with a comforter, noticing the moon, walking in the silence of snow fall, hearing the breeze, finding the stars, being on the beach during night, capturing moments, watching clouds in the wind,

I'd like to meet:

I do not live the life that exists in your head, maybe I would like to. "Wiating for someone to come along and find me." "To remember only.
To forget, erase.
To learn, rearrange.
Can’t pick it up. Can’t hold it.
Can’t see it all at once."

Music:

Garbage, Sublime, Radiohead, Korn, Black Rebel Motorcycle Club, Eve 6, The Doors, Ever Clear, Oasis, Marilyn Manson, Third Eye Blind, Ok Go, Incubus, The Beatles, Tom Petty, Foo Fighters, Aerosmith, Nine Inch Nails, Blur, Coldplay, Pitbull, The Offspring, No Doubt, Stabbing Westward, Travis, Foo Fighters, Hot Hot Heat, Lenny Kravitz, Kings of Leon,

Movies:



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Television:

Six Feet Under, That 70's Show, Dexter, Mad Men,

Books:

Oracle Night by Paul Auster "...a sleep like the sleep of him who is undisturbed even by the sight of dreams..."

Heroes:

He told me that he wished he could put my mind in her body. I have never felt more ugly, but only because I had wished for the same thing.

My Blog

Pelican’s Worrisome Wake

A semiotic Eliotic dreamwith Proust bumbling around unread --an intuitive guesscommands awake.     Sledgehammer harmony      played deceptively right  &nbs...
Posted by Hydra on Thu, 09 Oct 2008 08:13:00 PST

Dark Passenger

If the eyes are the windows to soul and grief is the door, as long as it's closed it's the barrier between knowing and not knowing. Walk away from it and it stays closed forever, but open it and walk ...
Posted by Hydra on Thu, 02 Oct 2008 07:11:00 PST

J. Truant again

The walls have remained, the glass has held and the only thing that vanished was my own horror, subsiding in that chaotic wake always left by even the most rational things. Except before I fall what's...
Posted by Hydra on Wed, 01 Oct 2008 07:00:00 PST

J. Truant

Horror has caused this?But where horror? Why horror? Horror of what? As if questions could stop any of it, halt the angriest intrusion of all, ripping, raping, leaving me, leaving you, leaving all of ...
Posted by Hydra on Wed, 01 Oct 2008 06:38:00 PST

Heine

Mit seinen Nachtmützen und Schlafrockfetzen Stopft er die Löcken des Weltenbaus. With his nightcaps and the tatters of his dressing-gown he patches up the gaps in the structure of the universe. ...
Posted by Hydra on Fri, 26 Sep 2008 08:02:00 PST

Bachelard

The dreamer in his corner wrote off the world in a detailed daydream that destroyed, one by one, all the objects in the world. 
Posted by Hydra on Thu, 25 Sep 2008 06:37:00 PST

little

Passion has little to do with euphoria and everything to do with patience. It is not about feeling good. It is about endurance. Like patience, passion comes from the same Latin root: pati. It does not...
Posted by Hydra on Sun, 21 Sep 2008 02:55:00 PST

Theban Plays

Pitiful, you suffer so, you understand so much...I wish you had never known. -Chorus, Oedipus the King A man's anger can never age and fade away, not until he dies. The dead alone feel no pain. -Creon...
Posted by Hydra on Sun, 21 Sep 2008 12:28:00 PST

probably would of insisted on corrections and edits

...errors, especially written errors, are often the only markers left by a solitary life: to sacrifice them is to lose the angles of personality, the riddle of a soul.
Posted by Hydra on Tue, 16 Sep 2008 06:00:00 PST

Mayakovsky

1My heart's aflutter! I am standing in the bath tubcrying, Mother, motherwho am I? If he will just come back once and kiss me on the facehis coarse hair brushmy temple, it's throbbing! then I can put ...
Posted by Hydra on Mon, 15 Sep 2008 01:33:00 PST