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THE DAWN (Written By Dereck Blackman)Though the future is so evident before my eyes and the inevitable outcome so inexorable, I still can’t help but shiver. There was a time that I was happy with myself, now happiness is a dull distant reality and the future, already a deteriorated rancid dream. My so-called life’s ambitions are nothing more than the whims and fancies of the alien force to whom I surrendered myself.It was me! My search for happiness led me astray, I went to seek out dark promises of inscrutable things, things unimaginable, in a world unimaginable. I see them! Their faces are distorted, they are mocking me! They are scoffing at me! I loathe them yet they are my longing, they have made an addict of me, I’m incorrigible now. They are devils with the faces of angels, they possess all the pleasures of heaven and all the damnation of hell, they are Abraxis!Now here I am struggling through an overcast life, through the debris of my non-altruistic painful pleasure. Now here I am, withered and tired, I have already lived because I am the future, I know however that my happiness dwells in the past. But I don’t blame them, it was me, I surrendered to the alien!I felt this intrusion of light and understanding into my cloak of darkness and it began to offend me, because, I wanted to loose myself in my dream, I wanted to soar to deeper heights, I wanted to alleviate my mind. Could it also be possible that intrusions and interruptions are the essence of comfort? For if I have never known discomfort, how then could I ever be comforted? It happened now, the day my dreams were fulfilled, it happened the day I died, the day I was born, it took me this long to realize, that, I am the Dawn! MyGen Profile Generator