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I've the Cunning of the Tiger and the Wisdom of the Trees...

About Me



"I'm a little bit of Everything, all roled into One,
I'm a Bitch, I'm a Lover,
I'm a Child, I'm a Mother,
I'm a Sinner, I'm a Saint,
I do not feel ashamed !
I'm your Hell, I'm your Dream,
I'm nothing in between,
You know you wouldn't want it any other way...
So take me as I am..."

Meredith Brooks
I'm me..."not a Girl, not yet a Woman", but surely a granddaughter, a daughter, a sister, a cousin, a friend, a student in a crowded lecture theater, a stranger on the streets, a face through a window pane, watching the landscapes going by, as I listen to some music, dreaming of another life, thinking of someone, wondering why, why, why ?
I am a soul, a spirit, a heart and a body.
I'm a night owl. A night owl who wakes up at 3 am to write down a few words which came to her mind while she was sleeping...and which will probably become the roots of her new texts.
I'm unsure, selective and amazingly autistic.
I can be a singer, a writer, an actress. I can be inspired, charmed, overwhelmed. I can be lost or lose you. Always so demanding, unsatisfied, idealistic.
I can feel alone among the others. I can feel observed when there's no one around.
I can be somebody for someone and nobody to myself.
I am my own best Friend and my very worst Enemy.
To you, I might be(come) someone who loves orchids, milk chocolate and the autumn's leaves. Someone who likes to watch a good movie wrapped in a blanket. Someone who needs to laugh, to feel alive. Someone who enjoys sitting in front of the ocean for hours, without saying a word, breathing in and out the fresh breeze, remembering Louis' wise words : "What a wonderful world...".
Or I might be(come), someone who's looking for beautiful souls and good hearts, analysing each and every thing, each and every word...
I'm someone easy to leave, even easier to forget.
A person who likes seduction and sensuality, intelligence and complicity. Pure Beauty (Grace Kelly, Sophia Loren, Audrey Hepburn, Ingrid Bergman, Ursula Andress, Veronica Lake, Ava Gardner...). Deep eyes and sweet hands. Falling in love over and over again. Feeling loved.
A Bridget Jones looking for her Mark Darcy.
(No more Daniel Cleaver, thanks !)
A woman-to-be who pictures herself as a future single mother of three adopted boys.
A Girl who would like to have Fanny Ardant's voice, Adriana Lima's body, Gwen Stefani's style and Micki Pistorious' career.
Or all of Sophie Ellis-Bextor.
A nice piece of work unsecretly in love with Al Pacino.
Definitely someone who would adore to know how to play violin and would love to learn how to speak the Indonesia Bahasa. Someone who would love to live in London (who loves Hugh Grant's British style and David Lowe's humour, charm and witness) or anywhere else in Ireland.
A Girl who loves Irish ! (The Corrs, The Cranberries, U2, Oscar Wilde...)
...and you, who are you ?


"There's a deep Girl in a corner shop,
Selling sugar for Money, to the Dead of the Night,
And her Soul's in the Sugar, and her Heart's in the Mud,
And She's crying with a Stranger, for Someone to love...
And She sings...
Look at me, See me...
Look at me, Save me...
Free me, Find me...
'Cause if there's Somebody for Someone,
Yeah, look at me..."

The Corrs


"In the end we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."
Martin Luther King (1929-1968)
"To see a World in a Grain of Sand, And a Heaven in a wild Flower, Hold Infinity in the Palm of your Hand, And Eternity in an Hour..."
William Blake (1757-1827)

"You see She's...
turning the Key,
unlocking the Door,
embracing the roller coaster World,
stepping outside, with Body and Soul,
taking whatever Future holds..."

The Corrs

My Interests


The list is very long : Music, Cinema, Theater, Photography (especially b/w, obviously...) Painting, Drawing, Reading, Travelling, Writing my Diary, New Encounters, Languages, Mythology, Psychology, Criminology, Swimming, Dancing, Chatting with interesting people, Learning...

Random :
Bree Van de Kamp (and Redhead Girls), Men in suits, Love Letters, Violet (color, scent and flavor), Sirens, Colorings, Geishas...

I hate : Clowns, Tarragon, Mediocrity & Disappointment.

I'd like to meet:



Elvis Presley !

And the incredible soul who wrote this...

"Dearest,

I feel certain that I am going mad again : I feel we can't go through mother of those terrible times.
And I shan't recover this time.
I begin to hear voices, and can't concentrate.
So, I am doing what seems the best thing to do.

You have given me the greatest possible happiness.
You have been in every way all that anyone could be.
I don't think two people could have been happier till this terrible disease came.
I can't fight it any longer, I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know.

You see, I can't even write this properly. I can't read.

What I want to say is that I owe all the happiness of my life to you.
You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good.

I want to say that - everybody knows it.
If anybody could have saved me it would have been you.

Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness.
I can't go on spoiling your life any longer.

I don't think two people could have been happier than we have been.

V."


But, the thing is, those two really amazing souls are already gone from this earth... So, unless I find a way to communicate with them...I guess I'd just like to meet YOU !
Or rather, to get to know you, step by step...

Seriously, feel free to talk to me, e-mail me, instant message me anytime, for any reason (stupid or not, but I'd rather prefer not)...I'm bored as hell and that's what I'm here for !

Be a good boy/girl, entertain me, random me, but please, DO ME !

............

The Cranberries - Ode To My Family
envoyé par Violeeeet



Music:


Pop/Rock in general : Elvis Presley, The Stars Sisters, The Puppini Sisters, Pink Martini, Jewel, Céline Dion, Whitney Houston, Aretha Franklin, Mariah Carey, Shania Twain, Tina Arena, Delta Goodrem, Tina Turner, Alanis Morissette, Sissel, Lene Marlin, Leona Lewis, Craig David, The Corrs, U2, The Cranberries, The Carpenters, The Jackson family, Phil Collins, Anggun, Mylène Farmer, Lenny Kravitz, Kylie Minogue, Mika, James Blunt...but also Zazie, Asa, Emilie Simon, Tracy Chapman, Jack Johnson, Teri Moïse, Enzo Enzo, Sade, Francis Cabrel, Des'ree and the list goes on !



Movies:


The Hours, Forrest Gump, The Secret Garden, Memoirs of a Geisha, Gladiator, Meet Joe Black, Life is beautiful, The Green Mile, The Silence of the Lambs, Hannibal, Red Dragon and Hannibal : Rising, Dances with Wolves, Brave Heart, Gothika, American History X, Dangerous minds, Virgin Suicides, The Butterfly Effect, Interview with a vampire, Dead Poets Society, Out of Africa, Million Dollar Baby, The Others, Sleepy Hollow, From Hell, The Ninth Gate, Jack, Will Hunting, Titanic, Sister Act 1 and 2, Chicago, The Straight Story, Mulholland Drive, Philadelphia, Incompreso, Funny Games, Perfume, The Nightmare before Christmas, Ghost, Sophie's choice, Transamerica, Match Point, Volver, American Beauty, Cyrano de Bergerac, Into the wild, Eyes wide shut, 4 Months, 3 Weeks and 2 Days...

Television:


I don't really watch television... But, I'd say : Desperate Housewives, Daria, Dr House, Dawson's creek, The Nanny, Malcolm, The Simpsons, The L Word, Prison Break and whatever looks good enough to keep me on the sofa.

Books:


"The Tibetan book of Living and Dying" by Sogyal Rinpoché, "Eat, pray, love" by Elizabeth Gilbert, "We need to talk about Kevin" by Lionel Shriver, "Mrs Dalloway" by Virginia Woolf, "The Lovely Bones" by Alice Sebold, "Virgin Suicides" by Jeffrey Eugenides, "The Rosary Girls" by Richard Montanari, "Mary, Mary" by Julie Parsons...and the list goes on !

Heroes:

My mother ! Who else ?

My Blog

To sculpt Myself with Words

'So you're Gone and I'm Haunted,And I bet you are just Fine...Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my Life ?' A Fine Frenzy.  'You can call me a Sinner,And you can call me a...
Posted by C. on Sat, 25 Oct 2008 09:25:00 PST

To paint Myself with Words

'And I would lay your Body down,And rock your Tears away...' Peter Cincotti. 'All I want to do......is be more like me,and be less like you !' Linkin' Park. 'Try as they may, they can Neve...
Posted by C. on Sat, 25 Oct 2008 09:20:00 PST

To draw Myself with Words

'Through the Storm, we reach the Shore,You give it All but I want More...' U2. 'Will you ever learn ?You're just an empty Cage, Girl, if you,Kill the Bird...' Tori Amos. 'For this Crown yo...
Posted by C. on Sat, 25 Oct 2008 09:07:00 PST

My problem is...

I always fall in love with dead men.C.
Posted by C. on Sat, 18 Oct 2008 03:14:00 PST

And

'When the day is long, And the night...And the night is yours alone.When you think you've had enough Of this life, Well, hang on...Don't let yourself go,'Cause everybody cries.And everybod...
Posted by C. on Sun, 12 Oct 2008 04:43:00 PST

The Corpse Bride

Maggot :What does that whispy little brat have that you don't have double ?Black Widow :She can't hold a candle to the beauty of your smile...Corpse Bride :How about a pulse ?Maggot :Overrated by a ...
Posted by C. on Tue, 07 Oct 2008 11:54:00 PST

Parle avec elle (Talk to her)

Approche, n'aies pas peur, approche. Et maintenant regarde. Ne te contente pas de voir, regarde. Regarde vraiment.Elle est là, elle aussi. Elle ne te voit pas, mais elle te sent. Elle sent ta p...
Posted by C. on Sat, 04 Oct 2008 01:30:00 PST

"I heard she cooks delightfully" or How to despise a shadow.

You know that girl. Obviously you do. You just don't want to admit it. 'Isn't she lovely ?' was inspired to Stevie Wonder himself by no one else but her. She is the beautiful girl next door.The...
Posted by C. on Sun, 28 Sep 2008 02:55:00 PST

If(s)

If I could turn the hands of time, I'd rather make them applaud. If my plane had to crash down, I'd let fear convince me I can fly. If I mixed up the ingredients in my recipe, I'd tell you ...
Posted by C. on Sun, 21 Sep 2008 10:26:00 PST

In-between.

"If I had another chance to make you see,This is not the way I wanted us to be.And it's you...you won't set me free.If I had a chance to take back what I said,I meant yellow but it came out dark and r...
Posted by C. on Thu, 18 Sep 2008 12:02:00 PST