Ive thought for a very long time my life wasnt complete and I didnt know what I needed to do to get there.
I've been down on myself for a long time and I finally realize its time for me to take charge and not let life happen but, to make life happen.
Ive half-assed my way through life and although it has taken me places, I realize ive wasted time and could be much further.
I for once in my life realize the only person I need is me, for a long time I was afraid to be alone, but I was alone all along.
My main focus is on my children and I.
Ive discovered you cant depend on people, they'll only let you down.
When everything is gone you still have yourself, Im working on being happy with myself.
I go to school to not only educate myself but, to be a role model to my children. I am going to get my doctorate no matter the hurdles that come my way.
Ive been told many times I am not independent, I have my own house, a job, I go to school full-time and Im a single mother. Im proud of myself for that and I believe in myself for once.
I've done a lot of things I regret and there are lots I would change but, I have big plans for my future.
I refuse to live by the norm, its brought me hardtimes but, many goodtimes too.
My life used to consist of being drunk 90% of the time and Im adjusting to sobriety and finding it much more enlightening and fulfilling.
I'm not grown up, but I am making steps and making grown up choices.
Sometimes you have to let go of those you love to find happiness for yourself.
Life will pass you by if you let it, Im learning to make the best of my time and become a person I am proud of being.
I've come a long way from the person I used to be and Ive decided to make one change per day to get myself to where I will finally find pure happiness.
I've been told until you know where you're going you can't bring anyone with you, but then I realized there's no destination. The ride is what life is. We never stop learning, evolving and changing. Those with you are ultimately who become characters in your life story.
Life is what you make of it, and from here on out, I am going to make the best of it.
I am boring, lazy, and otherwise unexciting. =P
My life is under construction. Its in shambles, as of now.
If you keep doing what you always did, you'll keep getting what you always got.
I think entirely too much and I probably over analyze everything.
I grew up a fucking screw up, but Im working on fixing that.
I play video games more often than you can imagine. Its like an illness.
Im probably the laziest person ever, Im looking for motivation.
Im a psychology major at Spalding, soon enough i'll be able to diagnose myself, hah.
I tend to express my thoughts at the wrong time, but I am not afraid to stand up for what I believe in.
Im open for new outlooks on life.
