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scott urban/ gwidge

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About Me

I'm just a dude....living this life....just putting one foot in front of the other and doing the best I can. Life is beautiful....and at times it's not beautiful. It's taken me many years to accept this...and be o.k. with that. For many years I got into a pattern of wanting to ALWAYS be in a state of happiness....and honestly my real desire was to be in an even higher state, specifically one of bliss and euphoria. I found ways to achieve this, but ultimately they proved to be a destructive force in my life on every level, and on a few occasions, almost fatal. ....I'm creative ....am a musician/ songwriter. Blah blah blah...I'm getting bored talking about myself. Sometimes I paint. My latest thing is charcoal drawing.... Mainly I got on myspace not to promote myself, but to re- connect with friends I had lost track of. This is a beautiful feature of myspace and cyberspace in general. O.K. " this conversation has grown tiresome!"...."Now we dance!"

My Interests

music, pop culture, movies, art,.....creativity in general actually, and if I open my eyes truly, creativity can be found in just about everything. I like REAL people....people who are willing to drop the disguise and all the armor that most people hide behind. It's always been one of my favorite things when I meet someone who is just naturally OPEN about who they really are. God, I love that. And it's not that common. I think the last genuinly real person I got to know was my pal Jason Pepper...and that was like 4 or 5 years ago if that tells you anything.Actually there were a couple others from those Studio 12 days who were real as well......fun times.--miss you guys. I have a real soft spot for little kids.....and old people. There is nothing as sad as an old man crying....and nothing more sweet and touching than an old couple holding hands.

I'd like to meet:

Well, as you might have guessed, I'm interested in REAL people. --let down the guard, drop the facade, and tell it like it really is. What comes from the heart, touches the heart. And that's all I'm really interested in. I have absolutely no judgement on anyones "odd" quirks, kinky perversions, bizarre obsessions, etc., etc., etc.,. Once again, it comes down to honesty. As the saying goes," you're only as sick as your secrets". So I just dig people who are able to practice full disclosure/ exposure. I am drawn to that in a very......organic (?) way. Can't think of the right words to express it, but you know what I mean.-- and basically, that ability can come from any "type" of person......so I'm also not picky about meeting i.e. only "creative/ artist types". --really makes no difference to me whether you're an actress or a teacher.....a truck driver or a lawyer. All ya gotta be is real.

Music:

Sparklehorse, Son Volt, Jeff Buckley, Chris Whitley, Keith Richards, David Bowie, Jimi Hendrix, Ramones, Tool, Death Cab for Cutie, Robert Downey Jr.--that's right, you heard me correctly---check out his cd, "The Futurist"--it's really good..., Radiohead, Deftones, Al Green, Marvin Gaye, Brian Wilson (the sad songs), Bob Marley, New York Dolls, Chamber Strings,George Clinton,Red Hot Chili Peppers, Bob Dylan, The Killers,White Stripes,Strokes,Television, and on and on and on

Movies:

This is just as vast and impossible as the music list, but here's a few that come to mind : The Godfather, The Wizard of Oz, Secretary, Fight Club, Raising Arizona, Bandits, Bladerunner, Beautiful Girls, After Hours, A Life Less Ordinary, Moonstruck, The King of Comedy, Diner, Pulp Fiction, Dummy, Napolean Dynamite, Witness, Fire Walk With Me, G'night Mother-- talk about riveting acting....jezus, this film is just one setting, and only two characters....but it pulled me in and blew me away--saw it on t.v. a few years ago at like 3 in the morning. Oh, I almost forgot: New York Doll...this one was great and very touching....it was an unexpected gem. And oh yeah, I love any of those low budget hippie/biker movies from the sixties ...you know, the ones with bad acting, corny dialogue, a long drawn out druggy/"psychadelic" montage scene, ...you get the idea. --don't know why, but I've always had a bizarre attraction to those movies.

Television:

T.V. for me is a double edged sword. Chances are, if I'm watching t.v., I'm probably watching TOO MUCH of it.I think it was some Communist (Marx?) who said,"Religion is the opiate of the masses". Well, I would say TELEVISION is the opiate. I know for myself anyway that there are times when I can get so strung out on t.v., that I become a channel surfing zombie. In this way, it is not much different than other more dangerous addictions. --and I know a little about addiction.......done a lot of...research in that area. Yep. But hey, having said all that.....here's some shows I like : Seinfeld, Boston Legal, Independent Lens ( the student film show on pbs), The Daily Show, and, oh my God....The Sarah Silverman Show.

Heroes:

Keith Richards, Paul Potts, Mark "Crash" McCreery, Chris Davis, Mother Teresa, William Hung,.....now that I think about it, this is another list that could go on and on. So I will just list the main catagories that come to mind when I'm trying to figure out my heroes. 1. Anyone living a life of selfless service to others. 2. Anyone who has made a profound impact on society as a whole within their chosen field. 3. Anyone with the courage to truly be themselves, regardless of whatever reaction the rest of society might have. 4. Anyone who has overcome extreme adversity and faced lifes challenges head-on, with grace and dignity. 5. Anyone who is simply a good human being, and carries a sense of proper moral and ethical behavior with them at all times--not just when it's convenient.

My Blog

We Pulled It Off---(continuation)

......O.K., I want to finish this entry from last week.....      So, Nicole and I have been enjoying a wonderful friendship.....and "enJOYing" is a good word because there is a fee...
Posted by scott urban/ gwidge on Mon, 27 Oct 2008 01:29:00 PST

We Pulled It Off

Yep.  It's true.  Nico and I pulled off what is very, rarely done successfully after a break-up.  What we did is make the transition from "relationship" to "friendship". ...
Posted by scott urban/ gwidge on Wed, 22 Oct 2008 06:42:00 PST

Opium Dream -- Analysis

In thinking about this dream from the other night,  I have come to the conclusion that it was'nt a "drug dream" in the traditional sense......in the way we refer to them in A.A. circles.-----Beca...
Posted by scott urban/ gwidge on Thu, 25 Sep 2008 09:29:00 PST

Opium Dream

Oh God.   Had a dream last night that was so vivid with sensory detail........just CRAZY.  It looked like a fuckin' Skittles commercial......vibrant colors everywhere.  I was float...
Posted by scott urban/ gwidge on Wed, 24 Sep 2008 09:36:00 PST

The End of Something -- (What Happened to Us)

  Separation from the heart = separation from God. Separation from God led to confusion, doubt, and  fear. Confusion, doubt, and fear led to misguided action. Misguided a...
Posted by scott urban/ gwidge on Sat, 06 Sep 2008 01:07:00 PST

Something Special---part 2

......Do you know that you are the only girl I've ever truly been in love with?.....It's true.  Everything that came before was just counterfit.  But you..........with you,  it was real...
Posted by scott urban/ gwidge on Sun, 17 Aug 2008 10:55:00 PST

Something Special

"Know there is something special  you and I have forever"----This is what she said to me.  And though I know it to be true........ ........What good is "special"  when she's kissin...
Posted by scott urban/ gwidge on Sun, 17 Aug 2008 08:02:00 PST

music, movies, and relationships

    One of the things I really liked in my most recent relationship was our similar taste in music. I can tell alot about a person by the bands/artists they admire.--And actually, the f...
Posted by scott urban/ gwidge on Sun, 03 Aug 2008 04:52:00 PST

Let Go

I knew it from the start That she was the cheating kind Infidelity dripping from her Like sweat down her inner thighs I told myself it was just the high humidity Silly me.... Silly girl.... She really...
Posted by scott urban/ gwidge on Thu, 31 Jul 2008 10:48:00 PST

The frustration of letting go---part two

There's a big difference between letting go of something intellectually, and letting go of something emotionally. In part-I of this rambeling I was saying that, logically speaking, it's not that diffi...
Posted by scott urban/ gwidge on Wed, 30 Jul 2008 04:07:00 PST