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""Love Won't Let Me"
I hear a strange voice from a distance, it's whispering, "Let go, Let go," But I can't, Love won't let me.
We have been secretly seeing one another for months, but where do we stand? I want you in my life, forever and always, but your love is given to another, Unconditionally. Don't get me wrong, I respect the love you have for another, but I can't help the way I feel for you. What am I to do?
I hear a strange voice from a distance, it's whispering, "Let go, Let go," But I can't, Love won't let me.
In this little time we have known each other, you have been the one for me to look forward too. Because whenever I was at my lowest, you were always there to lift my spirits. Whenever I felt that one teardrop from my eye, you were there, to whip that one tear away. Whenever I felt stressed or depressed, you were there to ease my mind. No matter what, you have been by my side, But why you?
I hear a strange voice from a distance, it's whispering, "Let go, Let go," But I can't, Love won't let me.
Sweety, when it comes to you, confusion gets the best of me, I just don't know what to do any more. I have tried to cut you out of my life, but I couldn't, my heart won't let me. Sweety, I do Love You, beyond our friendship, you have brought nothing but light into my life, Otherwise, my life would have been dark without you. However, why do I have to love you, the way I do, knowing deep inside, I can't have you?
I hear a strange voice from a distance, it's whispering, "Let go, Let go," But I can't, Love won't let me.
Sweety, in these past few months, I have given you endless pleasure, both Physically and Mentally, and now I want to offer you my love, Endlessly. If you would except my love, then take my hand, and accompany me on this journey of completeness, where you become mine, and I become yours.
I hear a strange voice from a distance, it's whispering, "Let go, Let go," But I can't, Love won't let me.
Sweety, We are, one of the same, wearing this mask of happiness, knowing deep inside, our emptiness grows, Uncontrollably. I must confess to you, since the day we have met, my eyes have never lead away from you. You were the only one, I have never wore my mask for. With you, I did not need it, you are my happiness.
I hear a strange voice from a distance, it's whispering, "Let go, Let go," But I can't, Love won't let me.
So, confess to my, My love. What are your true desires? What's in your heart? Moreover, no matter what, "Justice won't let go," Cause love won't let me.
“Sweetâ€
The sweet essence of rosemary, surrounds my presence. My inner being is finally at a calm, finally this path I take, seems to make sense.
There was a time in my life, when I couldn't feel my heart beat. My past of pain, endangered my emotional being, I never thought I would ever be at peace again.
But then we met, and all burdens were lifted from my heart. And as strange as this may sound, because of you, passion and happiness runs through my veins. My heart beats again, thanks to you. I am reborn, because of you.
And when you came to me, I was lost, confused to what the world has to offer me. But now I see, where my heart leads me, to you my love, I know I will always be happy.
The sweet essence of rosemary, surrounds my presence. My inner being is finally at a calm, finally this path I take, seems to make sense.
I haven't let anyone get close for years, and being alone, for so long, I was giving up all hope. I thought my life was destined to be Alone, Miserable, and In constant pain. But that moment, when I held your hand and kissed your lips, I knew from there, we were meant to be.
Sweety, Because of you, I have this presence of happiness inside of me. And somehow, this happiness is like my blanket of security. I feel safer knowing, I have you in my life, and at times, I think about making you my wife.
Sweety, even though we have known one another for a short amount of time, I feel deeply for you. My images of tomorrow are filled with your beauty. And in all honesty, I can't wait for the future to come, just so I can hear two words, "I Do." I would never be the same.
Now I could finally say, "I Am Happy." It may have taken time for me to feel this way, but I'm glad it's with you.
The sweet essence of rosemary, surrounds my presence. My inner being is finally at a calm, finally this path I take, seems to make sense.
Sweety, my dreams, are not of wealth beyond understanding, it's something a lot deeper than that, something true and everlasting. I want you in my life, forever and always, for us to be a family, for us to be as one.
And I know at times, you ask yourself,
" Am I making the right decision?"
Well ask yourself this;
Am I the man, to lift your spirits, when you are feeling down?
Am I the man, to make you smile and laugh, to make you happy, and forget about the misery in your past?
Am I the man, to encourage you, to be the best, in anything you do?
Am I the man, That can walk down the path of light with you?
What are your expectations of us?
And what are your dreams?
The sweet essence of rosemary, surrounds my presence. My inner being is finally at a calm, finally this path I take, seems to make sense.
Sweety, I read this oath, as a promise to you;
I, Justice, Swear in the face of God, promise to love, honor, cherish, and obey you. For richer and for poorer, for sickness and in health, until death do us part. I promise you intimacy. I promise you trust. I promise you a sense of humor, even when times get tough. I promise you happiness. I promise you understanding. I promise you daily exchanges, to remind you everyday, of the love I have for you. I promise you, no boundaries, or limits to my love, I will give you my all, no matter
what shall fall. I will never neglect you. I will never leave you astray. I will never be dishonest, no matter how much the truth may leave you in disarray.
And I promise, to make a truthful decision, before each day begins, to remain faithful to you. To remain truthful to you. And to remain in love with you, forever and always.
The sweet essence of rosemary, surrounds my presence.........
“The Time I've Wasted, The Hurt I've Felt, Why Me?â€
The Time I've Wasted, And The Hurt I've Felt, Why Me?
Sweety, I remember when we first met, I just knew, you were the one. Not a soul in this world, could have ever taken your place. I was proud to call you, "My wife to be."
The time I've wasted.......
How about those endless talk about the future? We would talk about, marriage, kids, being lovers forever, do you remember? Every single moment we had, working on our dreams, trying to make them come true. Talks about, you and I in the future, was so strong hearted.
The time I've wasted......
Do you remember, how we would take those long, endless walks. Not caring about the world, you were my life, and I was yours?
The time I've wasted.......
How about those sleepless nights, I've never told you about. Thinking of you, the one I adored. Just holding you in my arms, endlessly, caressing your soul, and never wanting to let go. I just wanted to show you, the man I could be. Showing you all the things, that only appear to be fantasies. How much I've dreamt about you, is unimaginable.
The time I've wasted..........
How about those days, I felt alone, depressed and unwanted, you made me feel, as if I was on top of the world. There were things we would do for one another, nothing holding us back. Confessing our undying love, Do you remember?
The Time I've Wasted, And The Hurt I've Felt, Why Me?
But now, time has passed, things have changed, and feelings has been hurt. You have made me live, without a care in the world. Heartless to those, who have done nothing to me. Do you not see my hatred? You have me unsatisfied with life, thinking nothing good is ever going to come to me. You have brought, nothing but pain and misery, to my life. You once told me, you Loved me, but how could you, your love is shown in a way of misery. Is that the way you show your undying love for me? If so, all you'll get in return, is my undying hatred. I don't know whether to understand, that the hurt I feel, is your full blown love, or is it, you have yet to learn how to love. All I know, My heart, it's feeling like, it's about to burst, is that true love? You're the reason that, loneliness, is the only love I know.
The Time I've Wasted, And The Hurt I've Felt, Why Me?
I know at times, you ask yourself, "Why does he feel this way, towards me?" It's because of you can't you see that? You once told me, "I see your hatred." But how could you, it lies in you. It's because of you, I feel this way, and only you, will feel the flames of my hatred. You lied, cheated, and mentally abused me, and then you got the nerve to ask me, Why do I treat you this way? The answer lies in you. You posses, this hated I have. You created this hatred. Don't you understand? Can't you realize? I have done nothing, but gave you unmeasured love. And what do I get in return, Long days of hurt and pain.
The Time I've Wasted, And The Hurt I've Felt, Why Me?
I want to thank you, Sweety, I've never felt better. You taught me a lesson, I've never learned. It's all good, See, I've learned who's best for me, The comfort of self, I could never do myself, the way you did me.
The comfort of self, could cause no pain.
The comfort of self, could play no games.
The comfort of self, could tell no lies.
The comfort of self, could never die.
The comfort of self, is what I crave.
The comfort of self, straight to my grave.
The time I've wasted.......
My perfect soul mate, The one I have been looking for, all my life, has been staring at me, with thine eyes. Though I never realized, that my perfect soul mate, is and forever will be, Myself. The comfort of self.
The time I've wasted........
I could never abuse myself. I could never hurt, lie to, cheat on, or turn my back on, myself. The comfort of self.
No one could ever love me, the way I love myself. I bring all the joy into my life, with the help of no one. I bring sun to my cloudy days. I make the next day, something to look forward too.
Who do I need?
Why do I need them?
As long as I have, the comfort of self, I need no one. The comfort of self.
The time I've wasted.........
Who do I breathe for? Self......
Who would I die for? Self......
Who makes all my dreams, become a reality? Self......
The comfort of self.
The time I've wasted.........
Sweety, do you understand, where I am coming from? The comfort of self, is what I am looking for. My perfect soul mate, is an image of me. Are you an image of me? If not, it's not going to work, so don't waste my time.
The Time I've Wasted, And The Hurt I've Felt, Why Me?
See Sweety, you have put me down to my lowest, I could never forgive you for that. But I just want to let you know, Someone picked me up, she help me onto my feet. She made me see the light.
Now that I look back, my life exploded in your hands, just filled with hurt. All the feelings and hatred I have inside of me, towards you, I have only one thing to tell you, "Fuck You, Bitch, and Go To Hell."
The time I've wasted......
See Sweety, understand, I will fall in love again, and she will give me, Unconditional and Unmeasured love, the type of love, I have been looking for, all my life.
I just want to wish you, "A Fucked Up Life," and I hope everything you did to me, is returned to you, ten times as powerful.
The Time I've Wasted, And The Hurt I've Felt, Why Me?
I want you to remember this, if anything. Loves tainted arrow, piercing hearts, showing the untamed love, of those, who's hearts are empty, but filled with hatred. Do you not see, that love is the purest form of life. For without love, then death will become you, For you will feel, the fires of hell surrounding you. Learn to love, and maybe you'll feel the skies of heaven shining down on you.
The Time I've Wasted, And The Hurt I've Felt, Why Me?
"Trust"
My eyes wander in confusion, delusions of caressing you. But you say, you have a certain vibe, you feel about me, a vibe that the feeling is unexplainable.
Trust isn't an option any more, when you think of me, it'll never be given. You have painted a picture of me, and thought that's the way I was, the worse person in the world. Yet, I have never hurt you, or scarred your heart, for you to think that way of me.
I have planted that flower of friendship, I have watered it, nurtured it, loved it, and watched it grow. I gave this flower sunlight, when it was needed, and conversation, when it was lonely. But this flower slowly dies, making my heart seem like it was out of place. I cried out, "Please don't die, my intentions towards you, have been nothing but the best." But as you whither away and die, your final words to me were, "Your intentions were selfish, you thought only of yourself." And as I cry that final tear, I whisper, "All I ever wanted, was for us to grow together, for us to smile together."
Your delusions of me, were never of me, why couldn't you see that, and trust me?
“Affairs Of The Heartâ€
Affairs of the heart. What do you feel, when thoughts of me appear?
Last night, I dreamt of holding you close, feeling your heartbeat next to mine. As we stared eye to eye, My emotions started to run wild. My hands traced your loving body, ever so gently. Feeling your every curve, your every tremble, the moisture, that ran down the middle of your chest, and the deep breaths, you would take. I felt you, Baby, and wanted to make love to you. But it was just a dream.
Affairs of the heart. What do you feel, when thoughts of me appear?
Baby, I am curious warmth, your touch, your lips, your kiss. Temptation fills my mind, every time we flirt. But are there motives, behind the way we smile? I want you in ways, I, Myself, Can't understand. I don't know how long I can hold back this feeling of bliss, it's escaping.
Affairs of the heart. What do you feel, when thoughts of me appear?
My conscious screams to me, "What you feel isn't right!" For I am in Love with someone else, and so are you. My thoughts should be pure, my heart should be faithful, yet, impurely, I think of you constantly. Why now, does my confused heart, split for two?
Affairs of the heart. What do you feel, when thoughts of me appear?
This constant battle, between wrong and right, between love and lust, I know what I feel for you, isn't right, but yet it is. I am not wrong, to think of you sweetly, But I am wrong, to hold you dearly. What do you feel? Do you feel the same way too?
Affairs of the heart. What do you feel, when thoughts of me appear?
When I think of you, I feel safe, as if pain never existed. your presence, surrounds me with happiness. I've tried to walk away, from what I feel, and be faithful, but I can't, there's something about you, I am drawn too. Could we just have one night, of impure bliss? One night, of unfaithfulness?