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Generally, I am pretentious, melodramatic, and self-center, uncaring, blunt, a bitch, pessimistic and many other things that people have called me and somethings they have not. But there was a time when I tried really hard not to be those things. I guess it has back-fired on me because all I have heard from people lately is how nasty, ugly and not nice I am. So here is what I have to say if you don't like what I have to say DON'T LISTEN! If you don't like me, DON'T HANG AROUND ME! If you have a problem with me FUCKING SAY SOMETHING! Because something I value more than anything else is honesty. And whether you like me or not is not going to change me or affect my life or what I am trying to accomplish. LOVE ME OR DON'T but don't think that for a minute I need you. That being said this is what I think of me. I think I am easy to get along with and I like most everybody. I am quiet and I like company but in a crowd prefer to sit and watch than to talk, but one on one I think you will find that I am not as cold as I look. Most of my friends will tell you I will talk your ear off. I love to have fun, but I am responsible and I worry about everyone and everything, so I compromise my fun for others. And I don't have to be smiling to be having fun, most of the time I am completely content and happy. But I like to smile and make funny faces. My emotions are always written across my face. I like to sit and cuddle and watch a movie more than I like going on an all day hike. I like the outdoors from inside. But my favorite thing to do in the summer is to go for a walk at sunset. I love the rain, and I am convinced that it rains when I need it to, because rain makes me happy. I also like snow, even if my car doesn't. I like my car, it's great. I like dogs more than cats because cats feel like jello. I want a snake, a big banana boa. Every season has its advantages but generally I enjoy winter and spring the most. I am super picky- get used to it, get over it. Also don't ask me something if you don't want to know how I feel about it. I talk about my family and Turkey a lot, so get over it. My family means the world to me, especially my little brother. And living in Turkey for a year change my entire outlook on life. I learned and gained so much from my exchange year, and any of you who knew me at all before will know this. Other things that you should know- I like roses but the way to my heart is a lilac bush, I like chocolate, but dark chocolate or chocolate with nuts, I like music, all music, on occasions I just need to be alone, I like tatoos and piercings, I am not afraid to try new things, but I am terribly picky, my birthday is the most important day of the year from me and I expect a happy birthday from everyone and I know that every day has a purpose as does every event, so why regret anything.