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Nikki

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About Me

The older I get, the more I learn about myself, but am so thankful my core being has not ever changed. I'm my own person, I could give a flyin rats ass about what most people think. I come from a very different background than most new england snobs, and for the most part I can't stand the people around here. I am not passive, I am not apathetic, I am in your face, I stand for what I believe, I am a bitch, but the one you will always want on your side, hell hath no fury as me if you cross the line. The ones who matter are the ones who love me for who I am, flaws and all. I intimidate people, but whatever. Underneath all the tough exterior I have a big heart, if you don't get to see that side of me, well...what does that say about you??? And if you have known that side, but have not seen it in awhile, well think about why...cause I don't shut people out just because....My mom amazes me everyday, she is tougher than anyone I know, and the epitome of grace and class. Many people claim to have it, but if you have to claim it, you couldn't possibly have it.My daughter reminds me so much of myself... I just hope the world is not as cruel to her as it was to me... I know I am severely protective of her, and will try my best to not let anyone hurt her innocence. All I want her to know is love and respect. I am her mother, the only mother she will ever have, I carried her for nine months, almost died and would die for her. You have been warned :-)Del. I know I've found what I've been looking for in him. We've been friends for years and now finally, best friends and totally in love. I never knew being in love would make me feel so happy or content. Always thought it was something fairytalish, and unattainable. I almost don't want to write it down because I don't want to jinx it. There has never been a man in my life that I have loved as much as I love him.And the following could quite possibly sum me up in the most succint form:
You Are an Espresso
At your best, you are: straight shooting, ambitious, and energetic
At your worst, you are: anxious and high strung
You drink coffee when: anytime you're not sleeping
Your caffeine addiction level: high What Kind of Coffee Are You?
Your Values Profile
Loyalty:
You value loyalty highly.
You're completely devoted to your friends and family.
Even if they totally screw up, you're still there for them.
Just make sure they're equally loyal to you!
Honesty:
You value honesty highly.
You're unflinchingly honest, even when it's not easy.
For you, integrity is very important - in yourself and others.
People may not always like what you say, but they know they can trust it.
Generosity:
You value generosity highly.
So much so that you often put your own needs last.
There's nothing wrong with having a caring heart...
But you may want to rethink your "open wallet" policy.
Humility:
You value humility a fair amount.
You tend to be an easy going, humble person.
But occasionally your ego takes over.
You have a slight competitive streak - and the need to be the best.
Tolerance:
You value tolerance a fair amount.
You are open to new cultures, beliefs, and ideas.
You have very few prejudices that you're aware of.
And while you are tolerant, you do stand true to what you believe. The Five Factor Values Test

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Hahaha, in a dark alley or who I admire? Well, as far as the admiration part, I would love to meet Hillary Rodham Clinton, I do think the world of her. Deceased, I would have liked to meet my Pap Pap's mom before her stroke. My Grandmother is an AMAZING lady and has influenced me so much as far as being myself and never take anything sitting down that isn't right. It's because of her that I'm pretty tough, genetics! I wish I had more time to spend with her... Dark alley... There's about 3 or 4 people I'd like to meet in a dark alley, although there is no telling what I'd do to them, especially if there were no consequences or other people who would be hurt by my actions. And it's not because of what these people have done to me personally (well, maybe one) but because it's what they've done to people that I love fiercely and am extremely protective of. Not to mention some people who think it's fun to make people's lives miserable. There are some things that can't EVER be forgiven and forgotten.To My ex-husband: As angry as you make me, I will never forget that together we made the most wonderful Punkin Pie. Part of me might forever be mad, but part will always be thankful for our daughter. And here in black and white, I will show you finally and everyone else that I have always loved the kind of father you our to our daughter. You may be a lot of things sometimes, but I am forever thankful that you have been a wonderful father to the most precious little girl in the world. Please do not stop being in love and involved with her. I'm sorry about everything that has happened, I wish it would have happened less painfully on both sides, but it's done, its over and it's in the past. Everything happens for a reason.
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My Blog

Cause I Can...

Type A Blog on my phone... the wonders of modern technology... I went with my boyfriend to see Lifedown play this past weekend... good set on their part. Very glad to see most of the people there, a...
Posted by on Tue, 27 Jan 2009 18:58:00 GMT

Guilty and a lamentation....

So, I'm sitting here, I'm ready to go out on a girls date with my Angel, and all I can think about is how I'd love to be 'nuggled up with my little Angel...the one that has the horns holding up her ha...
Posted by on Sat, 22 Nov 2008 17:29:00 GMT

Nothing, really

Just one of those random ramblers again.  Just because it's been a whopping three months and my world has been flipped completely upsidedown and sideways since.  I posted last time that lif...
Posted by on Thu, 28 Aug 2008 09:43:00 GMT

Cause it’s friday night and I get to ramble...

Ah, life.  It's a rollercoaster.  You go from the highest highs and dip right back down low.  A friend is going through hell right now and I'm dealing with my own. The lies, the bullshit, its all too ...
Posted by on Fri, 23 May 2008 23:57:00 GMT

I made the mistake...

Of Blinking.  My daughter is going to be 6 months old this Saturday on her Daddy's birthday.  Where have the last 6 months gone??  This little wiggle worm on my lap chewing on my arm, w...
Posted by on Sun, 20 Jan 2008 14:18:00 GMT

4 months old, a tank and a tooth!

So, last week, Aynslei was 4 months old.  How time flies!!  At her doctors appointment, she was proclaimed a healthy beautiful (of course) baby!  And then she got her shots and was piss...
Posted by on Sun, 02 Dec 2007 13:19:00 GMT

Aynslei at one month!

As promised, we are back from Aynslei's one month appointment and for the most part, she is doing perfect! She weighs in at a very healthy 11 pounds 1 ounce (95th percentile) and is a whopping 22 inch...
Posted by on Tue, 28 Aug 2007 11:29:00 GMT

Aynslei Madison is here!

Thank you to everyone who left such sweet and encouraging comments, and Anthony and I are proud parents of a VERY beautiful and healthy baby girl!I started the induction on July 24th with misopropyl (...
Posted by on Wed, 01 Aug 2007 00:46:00 GMT

We Move! We Move! So excited!

So, yes, we are finally moving!!  1 June we are leaving Mooooooosup...yay!  We found a gorgeous giangunda apartment up in Putnam with people who seem like a dream to rent from.  The cat...
Posted by on Tue, 22 May 2007 12:52:00 GMT

Rest In Peace, 5 years

5 years ago.  I can't believe its been so long.  So much has happened, but when I think about it, the pain is still as fresh as if it happened yesterday.  I know she's in a better place...
Posted by on Fri, 13 Apr 2007 02:25:00 GMT