All my life I felt I deserved things because of the person I was, the choices that I made, and the things I could do. I was driven and almost emotionless …… logical and intellectual to the core. Performance was a way of life, and I had become so miserable that it was my normal state …… and even worse … my identity. I was a victim of the unfairness of life, and God solely was to blame.
As I look back on my life and all it entails right now, I have shockingly realized that the person who was almost never wrong …… was. I never deserved any of the things I believed I was entitled. The hurt that I endured and the emotions that were suppressed caused me to be numbered among the walking dead.
When I hit what I considered rock bottom, something happened that I never expected … the God who I held responsible for all my woes put me onto a path of healing so that I could be numbered among the truly living through His Son.
I know now that everything that I have is due entirely to His goodness. He loves me enough that He prevented me from receiving what I truly deserved and instead bestowed me more than I could fathom. I am in awe of His Goodness all the time, at all times.
It was His unconditional love that led me to repentance despite myself …… and now I will do all I can to be a vessel for Him so that others can encounter His unconditional Love and Goodness and be numbered among the living just as I. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt who God created me to be … a carrier of the Spirit and Presence of the Living God.
Your EQ is 173
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.