Ambivalence, complexity, simplicity...That is me.I am ambitious but can't stand too much expectation. I am realistic but I want to keep dreaming for the rest of my life. Nothing can destroy me but anything can bring me down. I want to be someone, but I want to be hidden. I am open but I appreciate the beauty of secrets.-A little about myself...I love reading, and I have it as my job now. I am a proofreader. I don't read what I like at work, but I find myself enjoying reading even about aneurysm, or multiple sclerosis, or carcinoma, or schizophrenia...whatever. Working always takes a lot out of me, but I like it as long as it is related to publishing.I almost got my poetry work published 4 years ago, but I didn't like that silly work so I nullified the contract (sorry Scott! but thanks for understanding what I wanted) and have had a kind of break. Now my boyfriend and I have a blog on Blogger (http://midnight-blue-sky.blogspot.com) as preparation for publishing a book together in the future.Oh there are many passions I have had all my life, but I would tell you I love music and painting/drawing other than reading. I sing a lot. Music can tell you a good deal of things beyond language barrier and borders. I love jazz (acid jazz, b-bop in particular), blues, blues rock, classical, ambient and hard rock. As for fine-arts, I would paint with oil colors when I was in my teen, but now I mostly draw or just sketch. I want to resume oil painting whenever I get the chance, but so far nothing to write home about. My parents and almost all my friends say I am talented but I don't know. I have always wanted to paint like Rene Magritte, one of my favorite painters.One of my dreams is to become a freelance journalist. But I have bigger and more significant dreams, which are to come closer to God and to build peace within other people through peace within myself. What am I doing for that? I am trying to learn what peace is, what it can be, what it should be. And so far, I have come to think that peace lies in sound spirit which thinks the right thoughts. Right thoughts is the power that we all need to live our lives in a right way, and in God's way.Now onto what kind of person I am... I am fun-loving just like most of people all over the globe. I like to make people laugh by doing the stupidest things, like Rick-rolling, talking gibberish, making up words or phrases...I am open-minded, and open to anything new and traditional but honestly, I don't like anything in a framework of traditional gender roles, including what a man should do in a society other than how a women is supposed to be like in her family/community. I appreciate Japanese tradition such as flower arrange, calligraphy and the like. I am peaceful...I love friends and want to help many people.
