why do I feel this way? |
SO... here's a new one... well, sort of...I completely blanked on my nephew's birthday coming up & I made other plans that conflict to stop in with a very good friend and have a dinner/drinks/crash we...
Posted by on Mon, 29 Dec 2008 14:36:00 GMT |
sometimes I don’t belong... |
Hard to explain why... but that was so very true yesterday. I felt constantly like the "odd man out". I was the token gay guy watching football & having a beer & chatting with a bunch of ex-military g...
Posted by on Mon, 15 Dec 2008 16:27:00 GMT |
life is strange... |
So, I'm sitting alone at my family home watching tv and thinking. I've been doing a lot of thinking these last few days since I took Mom in to the ER. I still don't know how long I'll be here waiting ...
Posted by on Tue, 02 Dec 2008 02:19:00 GMT |
a crossroads... |
So... here we are again...I don't know what I am going to do... exactly. I know I need to finally write him, even if he never reads it. I want to get clear while I am away from town and get that done ...
Posted by on Fri, 07 Nov 2008 23:47:00 GMT |
(sigh) |
So ... we're at about the 2 month mark (I guess officially I should wait to post this until tomorrow since it was the 29th that I last saw him, the 30th that he was arrested, but... it is definitely o...
Posted by on Tue, 28 Oct 2008 21:11:00 GMT |
insomnia... |
ok... so strange dreams... don't remember what it was that I was thinking about, only that it was kind of bizarre. maybe a bite to eat so late wasn't such a good idea... perhaps I had an "undigested b...
Posted by on Wed, 22 Oct 2008 07:35:00 GMT |
back to this again are we? |
so... today's a bad day. it didn't start that way... the morning, I wasn't quite right, but then by mid-day it was all sorts of messed up. I have been doing 'ok' for the last few friday/weekend things...
Posted by on Fri, 17 Oct 2008 18:05:00 GMT |
hmmm... |
Something I have a hard time doing is taking care of myself rather than taking care of others... perhaps that's not such a bad thing? In today's inbox..."It is critical to serve others, to contribute ...
Posted by on Wed, 15 Oct 2008 14:56:00 GMT |
start of some more "therapy" |
During "Walk Therapy" yesterday I decided to pattern a certain wise woman's method and do "Letters" here as a way of diffusing some of the toxic thinking I'm having trouble with right now. Feel free t...
Posted by on Tue, 30 Sep 2008 11:43:00 GMT |
spin cycle |
So ... every Friday has been hard for me, a reminder of when I last saw him & where he now is. Walking down Allen has become bittersweet... yes, there is the bookstore, and the bar, and I love both pl...
Posted by on Fri, 26 Sep 2008 20:21:00 GMT |
